In order to reveal the essence of a created thing, it can be helpful to take that thing apart. In the realm of music composition, our Composer of Music for Art enjoys taking a drum loop from her Kitco drum loop library and extracting each percussion voice out and into a new track. She then manipulates those isolated elements, assigning new sounds, altering pitches. Generally she preserves at least something of the original rhythmic motifs and the rhythmic relationships between the voices. Sometimes what was subtle in the original drum loop becomes in your face explicit in the reworking. A partially hidden dramatic feature is now fully revealed in each reconstructed element, and a drama which may have been subtly implied in the original loop is now fully produced, live on center stage.
When we destroy creatively, we seek to discover and understand the components, the building blocks of creation. We are breaking something down so we can build again, reveal and high-lite something powerful that was hidden or only implied. Contrast this process to self-destructive activity. Where creative destruction is about opening a channel for new growth, self destruction is about inflicting punishment on ourselves, creating barriers and stumbling blocks to our progress, whether out of self-doubt, or lack of self esteem, or fear of success.
We should recognize our self-destructive tendencies and come to positive terms with these tendencies. For some of us, any involvement with potentially addictive behaviors is too much involvement. For those of us in that category, we need to find forms of release which have the same effect of permitting us to “fall apart” a bit for the sake of some healthy regrouping and rebuilding. For others of us, we simply need to work at refining and moderating our “let go” behaviors.
You work hard and have great focus and determination and perseverance. Sometimes life throws you curve balls, or you suffer disappointments, and you feel the need to fall apart a little. Learn to value those moments as opportunities. Slow down the process of the drink, or the eating. Consider and understand as you enter that “self-destructive” world, that you enter with the hope of finding some refreshment, some strength to put your shoulder back to the wheel. And give yourself a few days after this “falling apart” process to find your way back to full strength.