Our Composer of Music for Art is a beautiful, refined lady – tall and slender, high cheekbones and a graceful acquiline nose, olive skin, just a touch of gray in her soft, longflowing hair. And she is a refined woman – not prone to showing a rough side, or an unfinished side. She always wants her “best foot” forward, to make the best impression she can.
And we give her credit. She is full of self-esteem, self-worth. She feels that being the best she can be and projecting her best to others is part of the way she helps others to improve themselves, and to promote them professionally.
Nevertheless, she has come to realize that there is a downside to this dedication to always presenting polished. She is effectively denying an essential aspect of the creative personality – that it is a continuous work in progress.
There is really no such thing as a a project being “completed”, of a “fully evolved” personality. There are to be sure points of arrival, points where we have achieved significantly in our works, mastered certain aspects of our personal development. These obvious points are where we feel most comfortable sharing. We are confident at these points that our works will have intended impacts, will generate intended responses – be that positive feedback or sales or whatever. In personal life, we go with tried and true methods of social interaction and behaviors.
But we lose something valuable when we are completely unwilling to show a little “dirty laundry”. Although the self-deprecating personality can be a bit irritating sometimes – there is also a certain brilliance to this personality, to this willingness to reveal weakness, vulnerability, uncertainty, an unfinished state of being. These characteristics speak of an individual who is growing continuously. Who is creatively tearing down self to build up self even stronger. Likewise, the artist who reveals work in process is courageous to show unfolding concepts, unpolished first-efforts to transform concept into concrete.
There is benefit to the artist and benefit to the audience when something in process is revealed. The audience can appreciate the process of a master and learn something about theie own potential to grow. They are given some courage to admit shortcomings, to flail with solutions in their own lives which might facilitate new personal growth. As for the artist, she keeps her own creative channels open by confessing and revealing insecurity and weakness. Showing work in progress affords the artist the opportunity for critical feedback on that work.
Of course there is balance in everything, and certainly showing our best side is important a lot of the time. But sprinkle a little personal “dirt” over your clean “floor” now and then. Wallow in the mud a bit! Let the website look a little crappy for a few days as you move to a higher level with it. Forget about hiding behind the “in -construction” sign. Let folks see the process of a master – You!