Pushing along in projects, it is natural for a kind of creative tension to build. Initial conception often butts up against the work’s natural evolution. Although you planned carefully the steps necessary to realize your project, you find yourself confronted with various limitations, technical, time, financial, which all require time and patience to work through, and the full solutions to which might not be fully available in your current project cycle.
This tension created when original conception confronts physical limitation is natural, even helpful. The confrontation is the project’s challenge to you to grow artistically, and primarily through new learning. For to create something new we must invariably learn something new, work through a new problem, or that same old problem! Each project demands that we stretch, that we learn finally what has been avoided thus far, to confront ourselves honestly, critically, for the sake of making this work just a little bit better than the last. The project’s demand creates tension. Living with this tension for the sake of the creation is part of the self-sacrifice of the artist. The artist feels a “tug” that won’t let go. As her project picks up steam, the sense of urgency builds, the imperative to overcome hurdles for the sake of arriving at whatever semblance of the original vision may be granted.
There is in effect a negotiation going on with that higher Creative Force with whom we partner in our work. That Force will have a say as to where the project will land. It is the wrestling match of Jacob with the Angel – and it is the very fact that we struggle mightily that enables us to connect with Creative Forces in the universe so much greater than us. We fight the good fight to realize our original vision. but finally, in the end, we have to yield, to find a compromise with that infinitely more powerful Creative Force.
As we gain experience in our creative process, we learn to recognize those points when we should yield. Perhaps we give up a color that we wanted that just won’t work right now, or we give up on a sound or a keyboard that just won’t deliver what we need right now – and we move on. We move to other aspects of the project, perhaps aspects we had not originally intended to focus on – but now we focus on them and discover amazing new dimensions. This ultimate embrace, although not without a fight, of a Creative Force outside of us that is partnering with us, can propel us forward in our creative work and take us in directions we never imagined.
So struggle mightily – then give up to Something more powerful than you. And learn from what was created, and be glad that you can begin dreaming, sooner than expected, your next creative vision.