For Lolita, there is a great deal of intensity associated with the final stages of a project. The analogy of profound religious experience can be helpful to understanding this intensity. Beyond the revelatory experience of the acolyte, which is passive, the artist’s revelation is accompanied by an intensity of action, and is all the more challenging to manage.
In some religious traditions, delving into the mystical aspects is discouraged as a rule for all but a select few. And even those select are discouraged from esoteric studies until they are well along in years and fully rooted in normative tradition and faith. The ecstasy that can accompany mystical revelation has overpowered some, taken them over the edge, disconnected them permanently from the realities of this world. Generally speaking, that is not a good thing.
As a creative project reaches fruition, the artist experiences something of this ecstasy. The clarity of the artist’s creative vision is akin the mystic’s revelation of G-d’s secret aspects. We are enveloped by our vision, and beyond this, we have become a vehicle, a tool, for the transformation of this vision, this conception, into a concrete form. We are fully engaged in the process of creation, fully partnering with the Creator herself.
This Power beyond us is driving us now to the end. This is not the time for our well-considered baby-steps of progress. We are not taking carefully considered steps here to lay a good foundation for our work. Rather, we are making the final, inspired strokes which elevate work from something good to something profound.
We are pushing ourselves physically and mentally beyond our routine capacities. We are isolated more than usual from contact with the world. We are ignoring the day’s routines which normally sustain us, maintain us. Even as we experience great joy in these final, revelatory moments of our process, we feel stress from the physical demand and the disconnection from our support systems.
This intensity of the endgame in the creative cycle is certainly something to be managed. Fortunately, and unlike our unqualified mystic, seasoned artists such as yourself have learned to keep a small part of the brain in emotional reserve during these heady times of project completion. This part of the brain reminds us that there will be some let down soon. There will be some need to catch our breath, to recover. You can look forward to the less intense, but equally satisfying opportunity to transition from internally focused work to the externally focused activity of sharing. Sharing your work is a way to include others in your joyful experience of finishing creative work. And equally satisfying, you have a particularly good chance to leverage your recently acquired clarity by providing extra helpful feedback on the work of others. Perhaps this is the greatest gift of your recent achievement – how it has enabled you to continue empowering others.