Lolita would like to support herself with composition and writing. For the past 75 years she has been working a night job, bridge crews mostly, to make ends meet. Daylight hours must be managed carefully, of course, but a well-darkened studio allows for some productive use of that free time.
Lolita fears though that she is either not smart enough to monetize her creative talents or she lacks the courage to jump ship from the night job. Both Deuce and Blind Monk have counseled patience. A day (or night job) offers security and peace of mind. Limited hours encourage efficiency and focus in the creative process. This encouragement from her dear friends has kept her in the game for a lot of years. But even as the vampiric imperative does get the best of our reformed blood-girl from time to time (with predictable and horrifying results), so is Lolita lately raging with impatience over snail’s progress toward professional goals.
“Something has just got to break,” she vents to Deuce. “Maybe I am just too chicken-shit to engage in this business of art.” (Deuce does not really like it when his Boss swears, but he understands.) The faithful Spaniel considers his response, but in the meantime motions over to a lawn and the clueless rabbit on it. Now bunny’s throat is ripped. Our Girl swallows. Draws a deep breath in, and out.
“You are making good, steady progress toward your professional goals as an artist,” Deuce reassures. “But really you miss out on the truly fantastic progress you are making these days in other areas of your life. Try to focus on what is working today. What is working today is giving you what you need tomorrow.”
Lolita hates when Deuce gets philosophical on her.
“Deuce! We just have to finish it! I am so close I can taste it!” (Of course we know what Lolita is really tasting right now.).
Our Spaniel smiles to himself, but appears to ignore his Master’s demonstrations. He bends his head down to chomp a choice tuft of grass, and once more considers his response.
“When you are truly ready, then drop everything and make that final rush to the finish line! This is your creative process. You chip away day by day, building good foundations with incremental steps. But the finish – that is a different story. To complete great work is to temporarily abandon balance and baby steps. The end-game is about yielding completely to the demands of your project.”
Some projects are bigger than others. You have come to recognize in your creative work when it is appropriate to maintain balance, and when it is time to yield, to abandon all for the sake of finishing good work. Large projects require balance and patience for a longer stretch – sometimes for years – but large projects also have an end-game. If you want a great finish, you will have one! You will know when you are ready. It may be very soon. Look forward to it! Prepare yourself for it!